A rumour is like a wildfire. It spreads faster than one would think at first, and it's incredibly hard to put out. It also leaves scars in the landscape when it's finally over, and it takes time for the nature to mend.
I am the nature, and a rumour is my wildfire. I am not sure, whether or not it's out yet. Because I haven't talked to the people involved. But someone ought to appologize, because I know that there's at least one person out there who doesn't know what to do now. And it's not me. Because I was the victim. In this rumour. I was the one who got hurt.
I was literally physically and verbally hurt, but there is no truth in it whatsoever, and the one being accused of these horrible, horrible things (because we're not talking trifles here. We're talking about very serious, sexual accusations that I would hate a friend for - if proven true). The things that my friend blamed him for doing, I would never forgive anyone. Ever. But I know that they're not true, because they are said to have been done to me, and I know that's not true. Who would know better than I?
I was literally physically and verbally hurt, but there is no truth in it whatsoever, and the one being accused of these horrible, horrible things (because we're not talking trifles here. We're talking about very serious, sexual accusations that I would hate a friend for - if proven true). The things that my friend blamed him for doing, I would never forgive anyone. Ever. But I know that they're not true, because they are said to have been done to me, and I know that's not true. Who would know better than I?
And now I'm waiting for it to pass, but the wait can be long, maybe it'll last forever - right now I do not know. I've been trying to contact the other person involved but he won't answer. That is the most frustrating about it all, because I don't know why. It could be so many things.
1. He did regret spending time with me after all and doesn't care about the rumour. He doesn't want to see me again.
2. He does care about the rumour but doesn't care about me, so he will not answer.
3. He does want to see me again, but he also cares about the rumour so he's not sure what to do. Will they hate him even more?
4. He cares about the rumour and me, and wonders if there's any truth in what has been said. He wonders if I feel as bad about him as they do and is afraid to contact me.
Any of these would be bad, but the forth would be the most horrible and frustrating to me. Because that'd mean that he feels really bad about it all and doubts himself even though he's done nothing wrong.
I guess I'll just have to keep an eye on that fire. And maybe bring a hose next time I come near.
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