Ideas

Today I realised something about ideas.
Not the ones that suddenly hit you but the ones others plant.
When the seed of an idea is planted it needs water and it needs sun and if it's treated right it will grow and grow and grow to extreme proportions, until suddenly it's so big you can't ignore it any more.
And when you realise that others can plant seeds of ideas in your mind garden. That's when you realise that sometimes you have got absolutely no control over what you really think.
Because really, who is it that thinks it? The thought or the idea? Is it you or is it really the person who planted it?
Today I realised what impact others have on my opinion and on the way I view certain things.

I had a pretty clear idea of what I wanted to do with this one problem I had. But when I suddenly confronted it differently and I thought about my way of solving it, it occurred to me that it mightn't be the right way to do it. And then it occurred to me that what I wanted to do instead (nothing; do nothing at all) wasn't really my idea but something I was told to do by another human being.
That really annoyed me because it made me doubt whether or not I can really be trusted. If I can't trust my own judgement any more, who can I trust then? Everyone except myself? That'd be pretty darn risky.

I'll have to figure it out later, though.
It's getting late.

- Yours sincerely