Forget and not slow down

I want to just get on with my life, but it's so much harder than what you first expect. It's like trying to forget something you've been thinking about all your life. Unless I become senile, it'll take me forever to un-remember this.
It's not too bad, though, because I have options. I have things I can do to temporarily forget about all of my problems. But you know it. I just said it; temporarily. It won't last forever.
It's so hard for me. But now I'm starting to think about other things again, like I did before the problems started rushing over me like crashing waves on a midnight shore.
I've read too much poetry lately.


Listen! you hear the grating roar
Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
At their return, up the high strand,
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in.
- From Dover Beach - Matthew Arnold


On my "Videos" page, I've put up a song called "Savannah" by Relient K, but they have so much wonderful music.

Especially their album from 2009 - Forget and not slow down - is amazing (Savannah is on that CD). The first track on the album, Forget and not slow down, only just really hit me hard today.
The beat is wonderful, and it just dawned on me now that this is my song.
This is how I should live my life now. Just put everything behind me and move the fuck on!

I'd rather forget and not slow down
Than gather regret for the things I can't change now
If I become what I can't accept
Resurrect the saint from within the wretch
Pour over me and wash my hands of it

Cause I could spend my life just trying to sift through
What I could've done better but what good do what if's do.



Music really is all I rely on these days.


- Yours sincerely